Philosophy

So I was going to write this as a comment to someone else's blog but it seems more fitting as a post on my own. And I know they will read it here too :-)

I think my favorite part about this blog thing is that we are talking to people who aren't really there, lol. Who are we writing to, anyway? Who is expected to read this stuff? What's interesting is that it's posted on the internet so it's basically saved in the public world for centuries. It's kinna kool to think that I might be able to go back and find this stuff in ten or twenty more years and read all about how things were. Now there's another interesting concept - time. It feels like a year is sooo far ahead of us but when you look back, things that happened years ago feel like they were just yesterday. Memories are kool like that, I guess. You have things that happen and they stay cemented in the reality of our mind forever. Do we really ever forget something? I don't think so. I think the information just wanders off in our brain for a while and then comes back eventually.

Clearly I've had too much down time today because I'm started getting into such deep thoughts as this. It is interesting though. Sometimes it's hard to think about the future. It seems so bright sometimes and others, it's as dreary as a rainy day. I hate rainy days. All rainy days just suck.

In other news, what's important to remember is that everyone is just another player in the game of life. There are big players and little players but they are all interconnected somehow. I used a story today about Jeremy to help my sister resolve her issues with stupid boy. Stupid boy's name is a fact that continues to escape me. It doesn't matter though. The point is that I referred to an event that happened while I was in AK - my friend Dave came over to visit and was at Jeremy's house. His room mates were all offended and upset that I had another guy over at his house etc but he didn't care at all. That's one of the huge important details of our relationship - we are secure. I don't find myself worrying about him being out with other girls or whatever. Granted, now that we're actually together, I probably won't be makin out on the couch with my first boyfriend but ... yea, we all know I'm a terrible person. Stop judging me.

Anyway, I'm excited to see what might happen in the next couple months. It will definitely be life changing no matter what happens. I hope I'm making the right decision because, well, someone's about to give up a lot for me. I'm so sure about this though. I just always doubt that I can be happy no matter what's in front of me. All the pieces are there. I just have to accept it. I feel like a counselor might be required to dive into this issue a bit farther. Am I holding myself back or is there a genuine tangible reason to be emotionally reserved at this point?

Hmmmm.....