So I'm laying in my cousins bed in Alaska, watching Gnomeo and Juliet and thinking about things. This is an awesome movie! I definitely love this movie. It reminds me of Matt, since it's the last movie we saw together but it's still a good movie. I remember sitting in the movie and hoping that I might find something like their romance. I guess I saw similarities to the love at first sight thing between me and Matt. I remember seeing him long ago and thinking about how cute he was. I wish, in some ways, that things had worked out differently between us. I should have waited longer to move to Washington and made some better decisions in our relationship. I have an overwhelming memory of being so unhappy back then though. I was trying to make things work and find a way to be happy but I was just never able to. It's not his fault. It is just how things happened. But that's not worth the time wasted in thinking about it anymore.
In other news, I'm mustering all the strength possible for tomorrow so I can stay strong for my little cousins tomorrow. Aunt G is going in for surgery tomorrow morning so we have to think positive thoughts. It's clear that the kids don't quite understand the severity of the situation. Which is fine. There's no reason so scare them unnecessarily. I have decided that I will spend the day with them. We're going to decorate Aunt G's space tomorrow so she can see how much love we have for her. I'm excited to do it! I hope tomorrow morning comes quickly. I am excited for the surgery because I want it to be over for her. Another step on the road to wellness. To this whole cancer thing being the past.
My cousin Bean (Kaiya) would like to have a shout out. So here it is. :-).
Now there's a reason to never look back. Cancer. Such a word has no true meaning until you are watching one of your treasured loved ones endure it's hardened blows. Chemo. Surgery. Radiation. They're just words without true meaning they are the only things that will save your life. Thank god for modern medicine! Thank god for the fact that we can stand up and fight back. It's a small step towards a greater tomorrow, for sure.
A greater tomorrow. I got a job today! I am working for the Swanson Law Firm in Olympia, WA. I am soooo excited because the attorneys are great. They originally offered a part time position and I was skeptical about being able to take it but today they offered me full time, benefits, and a salary of $30K! Absolutely everything I could ever dream of. I am so freekin happy! Just wonderful! So I start work on October 24. Not too bad to have spent just over a month actually unemployed. And with the extra money of living at my mom's house, I can actually make some serious payments on my student loans so I won't be behind on them after all. I've decided that this job, Brianna being pregnant, and my aunt's surgery going super smooth are my three wishes for this year. I'm sure everything will go well because things have a way of working out in the end. And that's something I am truly thankful for.
Anyway, tonight, we pray.
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