So... I woke up this morning at like 6am and Jeremy's awake... No big surprise. I ask him what's wrong, if something's bothering him, he says he's got stuff on his mind. I turn over and face away from him... he says, "Erika, Will you marry me?"
Excuse me? What?
I said yes. At 6am. Hella groggy. That's my happy ending, dream proposal, lol. I do feel it's rather typical for me. Something I would do. Fuck it, git 'er done.
He did propose again outside the airport before he dropped me off, which was very sweet. I had to fight back some tears. Now it just makes me smile... Or does it? Why don't I feel better about this? Why don't I want to run through the airport and scream from the roof tops that this is the best news ever. I got caught up in the moment. I could never say no to something like that. It just isn't something I can do. I have so much going for me in Washington. I am happy there. And it didn't take long for the moment to fade out. For me to come back to reality and wonder what the hell I'm doing. Helps that my sister laughed when I asked her about it. She doesn't even know who he is. And she's right. Is she right? Or am I pushing him away? Brianna might know more. I'm anxious to hear what she says. Am I scared? Maybe I should just give this a few months. This is crazy.
Just thought you should know that one of your good friends is saying a lot of junk about you on a website.
ReplyDeletehttp://www.militarysos.com/forum/venting/486685-why-do-my-friends-suck.html
"You might remember the drama that went down with one of my bffs two weeks ago with her scandalous Vegas chapel wedding dealio.
Well this morning, I wake up to a text message from my other bff, asking me to be her maid of honor.
...
So I responded "Um, what? And of course I will be."
Yep, that's right. Apparently she got engaged this morning to someone OTHER THAN HER BOYFRIEND.
She lives in Washington state. She has a boyfriend in Washington state. She went up to Alaska two weeks ago to visit family, apparently kindled something with an old friend from high school, and left to go back to Washington today, engaged.
has been my face, all fucking day. I'm not even mad this time. I'm just...
How is this my life? I couldn't even get my boyfriend of several years to officially propose, and my bff is now engaged to someone she's not even dating? "