Wednesday, October 5, 2011

Makin up for a lost week


I feel like a broken record when I say that it’s funny how the world turns. It’s interesting how things come together sometimes. I sent in two resumes today and got a call from both of them to schedule interviews next week. Of course, I will be in Alaska caring for Aunt G next week so I will get back in touch with these job opportunities when I return from AK. I’m thoroughly entertained by how that happened though. I was a call from each other them within an hour of sending in my cover letter and resume. I guess it does say good things about my qualifications though – I either get a super quick response and they can’t wait to have me in or I hear nothing at all. That is how things go sometimes though, isn’t it. There are some things that just work out and some that don’t.

It’s amazing that I can sit in my car in the middle of random downtown Olympia and access the internet on my cell phone. I can connect my laptop to my cell and surf facebook with great speed. It makes me wonder what will happen in the next ten years. We will have contacts for cell phones and be able to see video of the person we’re talking to. It seems creepy sometimes how connected the world is. On the positive side, people who are thousands of miles away are able to chat like they’re in the same room. You never are very far apart. As with anything in life, there are positives and negatives with the connected world today.

Jason Aldean, Dirt Road Anthem. TYVM.

So I’m going up to Alaska tomorrow. I ruined the surprise to Jeremy. No surprise to me because I do things like that all the time. It’s super hard for me to keep something like that under wraps because, as it happened in this case, I don’t listen to what I’m saying and I just let it pour out in the middle of another story. I don’t know whether I’m excited to go to Alaska or scared beyond life. Dad and Grandma are already up to their old tricks – Gma called Aunt G to cancel the plans I had with the cousins so I could attend some Broadway thing she bought tickets to. Bullshit? I think so but it’s how she works. I am excited to house sit for Jonathon though – I wish I stayed in better touch with him but he’s always working so hard. Inspiring. If anything, I know I will come back from Alaska understanding that I cannot be up there for long. Nice to visit, not to live.

Speaking of… we repeat the same old path that has become a recurring and predictable pattern for me. I have been talking to Jeremy about how much we love each other and could work together and guess what – I’m scared. I’m nervous. I don’t want to see him because I’m afraid of what might happen. However, vacation time in Alaska will definitely lend itself towards making me want to stay. But Alaska is not for me. It never will be again. Alaska is where I once lived, where I grew up and where I left and never looked back. That’s always been a motto of mine – never look back, never surrender. So why is there a giant rear view mirror in front of me? That past is the past. Hakuna Matata. God I love the Lion King. I can’t wait to buy it on DVD so I can watch it all the freekin time. Maybe I’ll get it for my trip to AK tomorrow. It would be nice to have something to watch on the airplane.

This blog is all over the place, something similar to what’s in  my head right now. I am on the right path to getting things figured out once again though. I got my IUD today. That will take some stress off for the next 5 years. I can do whatever I want, lol! I kinna wish I had considered this option sooner because I think it would have saved me some grief in the past. However, I guess the cost has always held me back. I look at this as a step in the direction of getting better with my responsibility. Getting back on my feet, as it were.

I moved into my parents house this weekend. That is an experience. It’s nice to have a roof that I’m not freakin about paying for next month but at the same time, there is a big part of me that hates the idea of living in my parent’s house. I am soooooooo glad I have my own bed though. We had a big blow out about moving into Stef’s room and the decision was made that I was going to move my furniture into the other room and thank god for that. I don’t want the lime green wall, for one thing. That’s her thing. I get my amazing bed, purple dresser, etc. I get the room set up for the most part today except none of my clothes are put away. When I get home, I need to pack for AK so I’ll put my clothes away at the same time.

This will be the first time I’ll be away from Annabelle for over a weekend. I’m sure she will be okay at my mom’s house but I’m nervous at the same time. I really can’t imagine life without her. Right now, she’s laying under my sweatshirt taking a nap and it’s so nice to have a friend that will hang out with me anytime. Sometimes, I wonder if my friends even like hangin out with me. Seriously, my mock trial team is planning another reunion but they haven’t invited me to it. I just saw the posts on FB. The last time we planned one, no one came except Normina. She’s a good person. I love that girl. I dunno, I have hundreds of friends so I don’t really care if my mockers are too caught up in whatever happened years ago. And… whatever I Might have done that no one ever talked to me about. I’ve always been told that I’m one of the most approachable people because I take anything seriously and I will always respond to the smallest request but mock and my job and N&C are the first time I’ve heard differently. Maybe these Washington people just aren’t the right people for me to be around. I need to move to the city or something where there’s too much going on for people to be caught up in bullshit like that. I think that’s the problem with small towns, people have nothing else to do but get caught up in each others bullshit and create problems out of nothing so they have something to do. Stupid.

This is long. Sorry. But it makes up for the time I haven’t had in the last couple days. By this time tomorrow, I’ll be home again, in AK. I guess we will see if I find home there. I doubt it. 

The fact that I can watch youtube videos from my phone internet in the car on my laptop blows my mind. More on this later because I don't know what else to write about and I just wanna watch stupid videos. 
http://youtu.be/vIk25NlP3o8     AND      http://youtu.be/wyx6JDQCslE. 
Don't try to tell you these don't make you laugh. Cuz you're lying. And lying is dumb. Don't be dumb. XO! 

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